This blog represents one part of me but I don't seem to be able to cough up new entries in it. So I've decided to start anew in http://swirlingchaos.wordpress.com/. See you there!
Friday, December 3, 2010
Friday, June 4, 2010
Extracted from my facebook: June 04, 2010
When we meet alone with God in the dark of night
Things can become clear as black and white
But then we return to the bright fold of day
And things are again bleached a shade of grey
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
I used to be a very comfortable loner, sheltered in my little world of books and music, fueled by my imagination.
Then I made the mistake of questioning my principles and started liking people.
Attachment and detachment. Making friends and breaking up. Liking then hating. Trust followed by betrayal.
I really need to get back to the good old days.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Haiz, seems like I've abandoned my little blog. That's the nature of man, always changing, mostly unfaithful, ha ha (OK, it's a blog, not a wife)
I've reached the milestone year I've set for myself years ago where I'm supposed to have achieved a certain goal but looks like it didn't happen. Not the way I wanted.
Sometimes I wonder why I've lived as long as I've had. I don't really know how to appreciate this life that I have and twice I've wished to cast it away like one throwing a rock into a rushing river. Looking at others who have passed on but way younger than me, not by their own wishes, one can't help but think, "Life's not fair". Sigh, where there's life, there's hope, there are new things to see, new horizons to explore.
I'm sure if you're the reflective type, you'd look back and analyze how different you are today than maybe, two decades ago. I guess I've become more sociable but at the same time, I've become more cynical, critical, sarcastic and less trusting. What an irony huh!
On certain days, I wish I could still be comfortable as that loner years ago, who could spend the entire day, snuggled in bed with books or bending over the glow of a monitor, killing virtual monsters and levelling in some role playing game, or just strumming the hours away on my beloved guitar. But no... these days, I crave for the pleasure of another person's company, to share thoughts, exchange experiences or just to hang out. Yeah, I can imagine the crowds out there thinking the same mundane stereotype thoughts "Get a girlfriend, get married". Sorry, but I think that's hardly a solution because I think if it was one person, I'd get bored in a jiffy, sort of like eating wan tan mee everyday for a month. *Puke*
Oh well, this was just a sharing of thoughts for my friends who are wondering if I'm still here on the same plane of existence as them. Yeah, I'm still here and am the father of two min pins you see in the banner. Cute little rascals and costing me hours of sleep daily, and robbing me of travel time until I find a good puppy-sitter.
Anyway, til the next blog post... Adios, my friends.