Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Aftermath: Accident

Thoughts to Ponder: Found this dead bird in my garden today. Such a morbid picture yet I find myself relating to it. I mean, no matter how high you fly or how low you stand, you might just die a lonely and meaningless death. On another note, I find myself worrying about avian flu.

Dead Bird in Garden: June 30, 2009

It's been 2 days since I had that stupid accident.

Actually I've been having a pretty hectic schedule lately. Church stuff. Work stuff. Planning for travel. Planning for meetings with friends. Worrying about this and that. Running around. I think my 'RAM' is almost full.

I guess this is what they call pushing your limits. Guess it made me tired and careless. But I'm thankful though. I mean, it could have been worse. I could have hit something or someone. *Shudder*

But I've been feeling kinda empty and dispirited since then. My damaged car still sits unrepaired. Still runs though. I have little mood to drive other than for work and to eat.

Suddenly, I feel very detached from this world and nothing seems to make sense anymore. For the first time, my mind resonates with my heart, "Life is meaningless". I've been trying quite hard to prep myself up. At times, it seems I'm demanding for attention but then I'm not so sure.

I hope I snap out of this stupor soon.

4 comments:

Medie007 said...

wake up wake up
*slap slap*

Las montañas said...

let your mind focus on some other new things!

btw, we will be in redang from this friday!!

foongpc said...

Are you going into depression? Snap out of it! Do something meaningful : )

Bengbeng said...

Jonzz, funny thing is I seem to b in the same groove myself