Detachment
I have a confession.
I envy people:
People who are totally driven to excel in arts, sports or whatever field of study they are in.They seem to have it altogether and their lives have meaning.
People who are driven to achieve better things in life and keep pushing themselves in their careers and ambitions.
People whose lives are given meaning by their loved ones and their children.
People who have dedicated themselves to some mission or voluntary work.
I have decided that life was pretty much meaningless a very long time ago.
I would have thrown it all away too if not for that thing you call religion that teaches us that our actions have eternal consequences.
But I grow weary.
A person cannot simply exist.
But what if there is nothing that you love and nobody you find worth loving enough on this plane of existence?
Life then becomes like a prison.
I find myself getting simple satisfaction in just hanging out with friends and observing them living out their lives.
Foolish as it may seem, it gives me a temporary sense of fulfilment.
But in the long run, I find myself just becoming....
Detached.
Comments
No. Therefore, will the real Jonzz be brave, come forward, and do whatever he thinks he likes to do. (Not counting those episodes of being the wallflower in others' company)
life will always look greener on the other side. those ppl u envy, they may be looking at u back with envious eyes. don't live thru others, u only live once.
there is nothing that u love and nobody that u want to love becos you haven't found it yet, not that it doesn't exist. hiding behind that computer, typing away, it's not going to jump up at u. go try everything. be it charity work, music, arts, whatever your mind can think of. if u don't try, how will u know it's not what u r looking 4?
is this work what u want to be doing? or r you just hiding behind something safe? somehow, i envision u'll be happier elsewhere, in a job that entails meeting ppl, creativity...
yr life is an open book, waiting to be written. u r the author. do u want white empty pages? or a steamy hot novel of someone who had dared to live and dared to love. i think u r afraid of being let down. live a little. what do u have to lose?
I dun know you in real life. But hey, fren you've got a great blog personality!
Btw, we know that our God is NOT a religion ok :)
let the feel good hormones come out!
climb to the top of gunung angsi and meditate! see the "world" below you. :)
(:
I have had my fair share of disappointment with what was thrown at me. But I refuse to believe that life is meaningless.
Nobody and nothing can make us happy if we cannot find that sense of happiness from within us, if our heart is filled with sorrow. Learn to be happy Jonzz.
It's like a cycle i think...I envy you but you envy me (not me la but...)...yea =)
so..u, me, n everybody..we just human.
u keep 5 minutes of self-pity for yourself...after that, no more! ENJOY!
Btw, simply satisfied is gud. Cuz you feel happy easily.